I did not get what I came for. What I got was almost beyond description. It was like digging through the ruins of an ancient civilization and reconnecting the pieces. When I was finished I was able to hold up my artifact to my peers, not fearing their response… I did not sacrifice my self perceived masculinity by being led by someone else to a place I may not have visited before. I believe that through my vulnerability that I increased my “manliness”. Now I can see, feel, listen and comprehend effectively. How can you do any better than that?